is this totally normal of me to be jealous of girls that talk to Brian? i swear i dont know why i am so goddamn jealous but i am. i dont want to be that jealous gf who is always making stupid ass accusations. believe me, i’ve seen bitches who didnt trust their man with going to the grocery store by himself.
*sigh*
he just means…everything to me. i’d be devastated if i lost him and i hate thinking their is or will ever be a possibility. he told me he’d only leave if i pushed him away not because of another girl but i heard that shit before. not that my so called “relationship” with the other guy meant much to me because he fucked me over before i ever got the chance to give a shit. but still, promises were made and they were bullshit. but Brian is different – and i’m not just saying something cliche. i speak the truth. he really is different, and i have faith in him. i trust him, i dont trust the girls.
i get sick to my stomach thinking about those other girls. fuck! i mean brian is gorgeous, he’s smart and sweet, he is a very talented officer to be, and who am i? not much.
i know i should have confidence in myself but when i see these pretty girls vying for his attention i just want to rip their heads off and make them ugly.
fuck, i have issues.
:[ help.
